What Do The Lonely Do At Christmas?

I’ll Tell You

A Peaceful Woman Alone — Not Lonely- On Christmas. | Photo by Leeloo The First

This not my typical well-structured article. This is more like a diary entry. Therefore, read it as a personal piece rather than a profound one.

I have not experienced Christmas with someone in six years. Every attempt with my parents has failed — due to some action they’ve taken against me — because they love me but don’t like me…and quite frankly, now, the feeling is mutual. I don’t like how I’m treated or feel around them. Further, I believe the love is toxic and/or conditional. I am not an expert on the topic, so I may not be using the right word to describe the love. I just know it is not pure, unconditional love that feels good in my heart and soul.

I Sacrificed the Present of Peace for the Presence of Family

Yes, I could invite myself to others’ Christmas celebrations, but I really don’t care to be with anyone else. I’m not really close to anyone and that’s okay as an introvert.

I have finally gotten to a point where I am not angry or sad on Christmas. It is the day we celebrate Jesus’ birth and that’s it for me.